10 day meme, day three

[ravnsdaughter]

Eight Fears

I started this on Friday and got almost all the way finished, and then got totally sidetracked... and then accidentally deleted the file. So let's start over again.

1. Losing the use of my hands. I use them SO much that I am totally scared of the idea of losing them. My mom has some sort of condition that has made her index fingers swell up and look all mangled, and I really hope it's not hereditary.

2. Heights. I can't even get close to the edge of our (27th floor) balcony without getting woozy.

3. Losing my home.

4. People I love dying.

5. The world devolving to resemble something out of the movie Idiocracy.

6. My parents deciding to disown me because they found out something about me they really didn't like. Probably a completely baseless fear, but it is what it is.

7. Meeting certain people on the street. Not because of what they would do, but how I might react because what they've done to me in the past. Fortunately the chances of this happening are pretty much slim-to-none.

8. Being stuck as a legal assistant for the rest of my life.

Comments

[kareina.livejournal.com]

"8. Being stuck as a legal assistant for the rest of my life."

Stuck??? In what way are you feeling "stuck" now? What would you rather do for the rest of your life? Be the attorney? Do something totally different? If there is a career path you would rather be on, what steps can you take to get there?

[ravnsdaughter.livejournal.com]

This feels somewhat dead-end-ish, mainly because I don't see myself at a big firm wearing a skirt suit or anything like that. I am disillusioned enough with the whole area of law and lawyers that I'm realizing it's time to figure out how to get out of here instead of moving up.

Plus I'm bored out of my freaking skull. And no, I don't want to be a lawyer.

I want to do something totally different, I just haven't figured out what yet. This is definitely something I'm thinking about a lot though.

[kareina.livejournal.com]

How did you get into this line of work in the first place? What skills have you learned/practiced here that make you particularly valuable *and* you would enjoy exercising no matter what you are doing?

[ravnsdaughter.livejournal.com]

When I moved out of my parents home (which was over on Vancouver Island) and took my first full time job, I was working in an office, and I had fallen into the position through a friend (who then became a roommate for a few months). I took it simply because I had no other prospects at the time and I wanted out of my parents house.

That led to a string of office jobs and temping, but I had a hard time finding anything permanent because of my lack of schooling and my weight. Eventually I went to Human Resources Canada and asked them to put me into some formal training. I had done a stint as a temp at the Department of Justice and enjoyed it there, but as I've since realized, it was mostly because I was happy to be working steady for a while at a good wage, and had a good boss, and not so much the actual work. HRDC said legal assistant was close enough to what I'd been doing, so they'd cover me for it. I wasn't about to turn down a year of schooling where they paid for my tuition, books, AND covered my living expenses while I did it. So that's how I ended up with this career.

I'm a damned good legal assistant, and can do the job with my eyes closed, but it's boring, most lawyers are jerks, and I'm sick of it. Thing is, I don't really want to do anything similar - I'm tired of sitting on my butt all day long. I'd like to find something that will stimulate my brain but also allows me to be a little bit more active. But like I said, I have no idea what yet. No freaking clue.