ravnsdaughter: (domestic goddess)
Today is my Friday - I've been working longer hours all this week so that I could take Friday off. And now that I'm thinking about it, I've decided to take Monday off as well, provided my boss is ok with it. And chances are really good that he will be just fine with it. And then I'm going to spend my weekend cleaning the everloving crap out of my house.

I was planning to wait until the evil roommate was gone to do it, but the past couple of days, I have been getting whiffs of the scent of cat pee in my room, and the mess in general has just gotten to me too much, so it's time to get it done.

So, I tried to quit raiding last night. I talked to a guild officer other than the GM, and he's concerned that I'm going to go into withdrawal and want to go back to raiding in a month or so. That may well happen, but I will just have to learn to deal with it. I know that quitting is the best for my health and well-being. He said he would talk to the GM and stuff, and I noticed this morning that the recruitment section of the guild's website has been changed to be recruiting a holy/discipline priest, so we'll see what my GM says next time we're both logged in at the same time.

I had a lovely dinner out with [livejournal.com profile] songstress1973 yesterday, even though I ate way too much. Next time, we should go somewhere healthy! Actually, we should do another girls' day sometime in the near future... I would host it and do the invites, but she's horribly allergic to cats and my place is coated in a healthy swathe of cat fur.

conclusions

Jun. 2nd, 2009 02:01 pm
ravnsdaughter: (WoW - antiproductivity)
This is something I've been thinking about for about a month or so now, maybe a bit longer, and I have finally made a decision.  Conversations via email and Livejournal comment with a couple of friends and doing a bit of musing this morning made me realize something fairly major and the solution to the question appeared like a lightbulb over my head.

I'm quitting raiding.  There, I said it.

I'm just not enjoying it anymore.  Now that I've gotten so many other areas of my life straightened out and so much closer to where I want them to be, it's made me start thinking about the somewhat more "fluffy" areas.  For example, I mean things like now that I don't have to worry about where next month's rent is coming from, I can focus on figuring out what makes me truly happy with my life instead. 

I got paid yesterday, which means, as usual, my money has started burning a hole in my bank account.  To prevent myself from going shopping online and wasting any, I instead went onto craigslist and browsed through the used car ads, to remind myself that I'm saving for one.  That did the trick, but then I started thinking, and for some reason, had a bit of a vision of myself buying a car, bringing it home, parking it outside my house and going inside and thinking "ok, now what?"  It sorta hit home the fact that once I've bought myself a car, it's not going to be the magic bullet that makes me feel fulfilled.  I still want a car, but it's just brought up the fact that I need to figure out what DOES make me feel fulfilled.

So I started thinking about that.  After a bunch of pondering and musing, I realized that what DOES make me feel fulfilled, is finishing a project.  Making pretty things, and being able to say "yes, I made that, isn't it pretty?"  And as much as I like sitting on my arse and being lazy, getting out and exercising and getting fresh air and building up a good sweat... or rather, the feeling AFTER I've done so, is fulfilling.  And I'm not accomplishing either of these things by sitting on my butt and clicking buttons to kill a virtual monster doesn't do it for me anymore.  It used to, but not anymore.

My health is also really becoming a priority in my life, as well, and getting a full night's sleep EVERY single night is a big part of that.  And I can't do that when I raid til 10:30 or 11pm and want to be up at 5am so that I can swim or go to work early enough to be out of there before my office turns into an oven (which it starts to do around 2pm).  My body requires 8 hours every night. 

This is not to say that I'm quitting WoW altogether.  I still enjoy playing video games... and can't spend ALL my time crafting.  I'm even looking forward to trying out the Star Wars Old Republic MMO.  It just means that I will no longer HAVE to be glued to the computer for hours at a time on certain days of the week. 

I'll be logging on tonight to talk to an officer and let them know about my decision, though I suspect that they will ask me to help them out by raiding for a few more weeks until they are able to recruit another holy priest, and because I'm nice, I will. But I won't be going 3 days a week, that's for sure.

And with that decision made, I feel a huge weight lifting itself off of my shoulders.

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